bye

ch0ke_me_hard @ 2003-12-08T16:35:00

2003-12-08T21:36:48Z

i love it when my friends abandon me

ch0ke_me_hard @ 2003-12-03T09:40:00

2003-12-03T14:41:26Z

if looks could really kill then my profession would be staring at marlene, laura, and miguel.

and this is.. the art of growing up

2003-11-27T16:44:23Z

keep the noise_low

you don't recover from a night like this

a victim still lying in bed completely motionless

"this is so messed up"

unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships.

the body on the bed beckons foward and he she starts growing up.

die young and save yourself

it used to be the reason i breathed but now it's choking me up.

despite everything he she learned from ~~his~~ her friends he she doesn't feel so prepared.

~~she~~ he is breathing quiet and smooth (he she is gasping for air).

"this is the first and last time"

~~he's~~ she's holding back from telling ~~her~~ him exactly what it feels like.

he she is a lamb. ~~she~~ he is the slaughter. ~~she's~~ he's moving way to fast and all he she wanted was to hold ~~her~~ him.

nothing that he she tells ~~her~~ him is really having an effect.

he she whispers that he she loves ~~her~~ him but ~~she~~ he is probably only looking for... so much more than he she could ever give.

he she waits for it to end and for the aching in ~~his~~ her guts to subside.

up the stairs, the station where the act is the art of growing up.

die young and save yourself

// brand new
// sic transit gloria... glory fades

oh sooo true

2003-11-15T18:57:43Z

dear mommy and daddy,

i'm tired of being what you want me to be

every step that i take is another mistake to you

... i've become so numb

all i want to do is be more like me and less like you

cant you see that your smothering me?

holding too tightly, afraid to loose control.

everything that you thought i would be is falling apart right infront of you

every step that i take is another mistake to you

... i've become so numb i can't feel you there

and i know that i may end up failing too

... i've become so numb

... ive become so tired

ive become this but all i want to do is be more like me and less like you

im tired of being what you want me to be

... i've become so numb

sincerely,
raquel

what's the price to pay for glory?

2003-08-15T06:18:31Z

FRIENDS ONLY!

{ image © troubled }

This isn't another photograph of a girl showing her body to the masses. Asking to be told she's beautiful.

This picture is about me.

Why do we have to look like little sluts? What makes boys like us better if our tits were bigger and our bones were visible? Why should I cover myself in some animal-tested make-up just to pleasure their needs?

I ask myself those questions every day.

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You left me dressed in vomit. My head in the toilet. My pants smeared with bloodstains.
You hate me. Now you hate me. I waved goodbye with my middelfinger in your nose.
Your own little ~~slut~~ parade is dead. Dead to the memories that made me a woman.

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